1x23 - Illusion & Dream

Por que siempre ocurre de la misma manera?
Mas alla de tener el don de la razon corriendo por mis venas, es muy dificil aceptar la realidad como es... muchas veces termino engañandome a mi mismo tratando de creer q no, q no tengo la razon, q existe una esperanza, q las cosas pueden ser diferentes... pero para que? por que lo hago?
Tengo que aceptarlo, esto es lo que soy. En comparacion con otros q me rodean no soy nada, y no vale de mucho lo q llevo por dentro y lo q soy realmente, en esta vida eso no tiene ningun valor, siempre voy a ser la ultima opcion.
Nah, no es de emo, ni me voy a poner a llorar en los rincones, es de realista, es de experiente, es de persona que sabe ver lo q se refleja en el entorno en el q vive, y con la gente q le acompaña en la vida.
Vivo atado a esta ilusion, a el siempre firme deseo de ser alguien, alguien relevante en la vida de alguien. Llenar un hueco, ser necesario; pero a cambio, ni la promesa mas sencilla se me es capaz de cumplir. Mi vida esta limitada por ello pero alla con lo q sienta...

Seguire esperando.
Una mujer, dos mujeres... tres mujeres, and I make no difference in their lives.
Se, tengo q empezar a hacerme mas caso, y tendria q empezar a pensar un poco mas solo en mi.
Quizas ahi empiece a hacerse la diferencia

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Last drop falls - Sonata Arctica

"When I'm looking in your eyes
Everything seems to fade away
After all these years we had do I know you now
Have I trusted blindly in your love, too many times

You said: "hey, my love, I'm sorry but we can't go on 'cause
I'm in love with someone else"
Tell me, what do you want me to say
When you treat me this way

Oh I love you, maybe?
And I hope it goes away
Oh, how I want you daily
I know it's gonna stay

You are so self-satisfied
Always ready for a ride
Double crossing, lousy cheat, love you anyway
You have warm and tender devil's soul, you are so low

I can hear you say: "I'm sorry, should we still go on,
I'm not in love with that someone else"
Tell me, what do you want me to say
When you treat me this way

Oh I love you, maybe
And I hope it goes away
Oh, how I want you daily
Tell me now that...

I have found the whore in you
Why can't I tell you "NO"?
Time will show, the last word is for me
If you fail to see the problem we have, one room full of walls
Jar of love isn't dry until the last drop falls

The moment I will step aside, you're ready for another ride
Walking in the cool night air without underwear
You have red light burning in your soul, I've seen the glow

In every dream I have I say: "I'm not in love with you"
But every day I say I do
You have messed with my head so many times
Forced me to love you

Now that...
I have found the whore in you
why Can't I tell you "NO"?
Time will show, the last word is for me
If you fail to see the problem we have, one room full of walls
I will cry until the last drop falls

Now that
I have found the whore in you
why Can't I tell you "NO"?
Time will show, the last word is for me
If you fail to see the problem we have, one room full of walls
I will cry until the last drop falls..."

Es increible como esa cancion describe exactamente mi historia... hay musica para todo

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Mission's Status:
Destiny's bond / Failed
Temptation / Success
Monarquia / Failed
Sunny day / Failed
Tempting protection / Success
Triad / Success
Wonderland / Success
Killing Loneliness / Success
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Resurrection / Success
Valentine / Ongoing
Souless / Ongoing